Back to posting on this dead blog....two more days to (ex)sister's bday. Everything going as planned until...until...edenuis and i got into a bad quarrel yesterday. Everything was like planned until perfect detail and just so perfect. Just so perfect. Far too perfect. Found the cake and people to go. lets see how well it was prepared.

1. People-set
2. Money-saved
3. cake-found
4. date-set

Just so perfect. Then i asked edenuis to buy the cake. Then he told me, i am the organiser, u no stand to talk to me. Wth?!?! I mean, even though i started the whole event in the first place, i never even say that la. Then its like, challenging me, telling me that i am just an outsider. Then go tell me that if less than 10 people cancel. Its like, such an organiser, even is me i wont care how many people going what...then i got fed up la. To him its like i make fun of u, its okay. But sometimes its not okay to me. Everyone has feelings, for **** sake.

And as usual, he keep on tearing the wound when it hasnt even fully healed. There will definitely be a permanant scar, and that is being unable to face each other anymore. Friendship mind u, its getting like relationship. Aft that incident, i have been trying to cheer myself up but its kind of useless. First time i ever got so unhappy before.

Yet, it never occured to me that i might be self-centered. Never occured to me before that others might also be hurt because of my actions. Everyone has feelings, just as i said. And even though some things that i say might be funny, the person himself or herself might take it to heart, like me. Thats my fault too. I shouldnt be so self-centered. All that i wish for is a happy birthday celebration, good friends, good memories. the rest i dont even want to care about it.

Hopefully my 'mistake' can be changed.