Welcome back...another month of afking again. End of year exams coming and i really wished i was dead. I know i flunked dnt already. Study? Yes study but am i absorbing it? I hate to say this but what am i doing? End of year just round the corner!! Okay this time its time to get real. No more slacking(yet i am slacking), start revising like shit(yeah right) and STOP PLAYING COM!(i still play everyday!) Heng i already cleared chinese(hey thats easy) and english with simplicity. So easy la. And not up to my max standards. Then next is dnt. Great. Really smacked myself hard. If i read more i pass le. Damn. Why didnt i flip one page? darn i missed. Next up, history, geography, maths, science. Geography is 'easy', i reading notes only, History left sbq cuz i getting help for seq. Yea thats a great help. Lit no test. Whew and damit. Test on animal farm la what shit animal hero. Hope i can get a1 again. Then i take Elec lit le. Computer studies too so as to bug syahid. Maths and science i hope i dont die? Daily revision makes me pass, but i sleep everyday. Duh oh..... Okay i dont wan to talk about any more shit studies. I think more, the lousier i get. Something else. Didnt notice that actually, i have been living childishly for so long. Keeping quiet when i should say something out. Until its too late...(its too late.....), and then i have to pretend being happy, nothings happening, laugh all day long and be derrick. Tired of it. Sick of it. Lazy to be derrick. But look, derrick needs to be happy. So, i just keep EVERY SAD shit to myself. I never tell it to anyone. Not even my family. So dont even think about asking me whats happening(techies). I really know that what i said to u is real, u might not take it seriously, so what can i do? 4get it la. Yea easier said than done. Then kena suan so wth to do? Thanks to siying i learnt a new word, suan. which means err, beyond explanation la. Okay i wont get any replacements for THAT PARTICULAR MATTER. Not anymore, i dont think ever. Solo is Derrick, Derrick is always solo. Bye