A few more hours to the geography exam, and a lot of problems are still flooding my mind. Not about exams, maybe one or two. Its really very bothering, i want to let go, but i cant. its just too deep. Whatever u do, i wont feel hurt. Unless u take a knife and stab me in the heart..i really wish u would do it. I still have feelings...don't let me lose them. If saying those words to you caused so much trouble, i really wished i didnt say anything. I would rather that everyone be happy, nothing happens and all of us remains good friends. But suddenly, i find that i am losing everything, i am really losing, i dont want to lose u, but i cant do anything. I havent done anything. I want to turn the clock back now. I know i am in the wrong, i really dont wan this to happen. I never learnt to cherish you. I always pretended i didnt care about you, but deep down i really cared a lot about you. I wont even bother any obstacle in my path as long as i could do anything for you. But i didnt say anything, until its too late. Its really too late. I should have shown my concern for you long ago, but i didnt dare to show it out. Everything was wishful thinking on my part, i never thought about others, i never considered how others felt, i never considered anything. I am self-centered. What must i do now so that u can forgive me? I dont mind being stabbed over and over again by you. Just say what u want. But dont leave me. I really dont want you to leave me. Please dont leave me.